After passing Class XII, I told my parents that I would like to become a nurse to serve humanity as my mother did. I went on to pass the nursing entrance examination. However, when I returned home after four-and-a-half years with a nursing officer’s degree, I told my parents that I wanted to pursue my dreams in the field of art and culture before I joined any hospital. With their support and blessings, I came to Mumbai in 2014 and began doing musical shows and films until I got a big break in the women-centric Kaanchli.

Most in this ward are invariably afraid and lonely as they are not allowed to meet their family members. I try to counsel them, telling them that we too have been separated from our families. Inside the ward, we have to be covered in heavy personal protection kits for eight to 10 hours, during which we cannot even eat or drink anything. We often feel dehydrated and giddy, but the motivation to look after patients keeps us going. Some of my colleagues caution me against going close to infected patients, but I do so with adequate protection.

I have had experiences here that I will never forget. When I joined the hospital, a seven-month-old child had tested positive. His mother had been admitted to another hospital while his father and grandfather had been in quarantine since their return from Dubai. I nursed him for 26 days and developed a close bond with him. My joy knew no bounds when he was finally cured and discharged.

There was another patient, a partially paralysed octogenarian who expressed a wish to go back home every day. He would refuse to take medicines, asking us to help him meet his daughter. I made him talk to his daughter and reassured him that he would see her soon. But when I reached his ward the next day, I found his bed vacant. He had passed away the previous night. That was my first shock. I cried inconsolably, telling my father how I had failed to keep the promise that I had made to him. There was a young woman who had a four-year-old son. She also waited to be cured to meet her son, but did not survive.

A 55-year-old patient on a ventilator wanted to see his family members, but nobody was allowed to visit him. I got in touch with his daughter on the phone. She requested me to put a picture of her dad on my social media account so they could see him. I happily did that, only to realise the next day that I had posted his last photograph. Thankfully, he tested negative in his final test and his body was handed over to his daughter. But she had nobody else to help her cremate him. I accompanied her to the cremation ground and stayed there all night long for his last rites.

I have been doing all of this as part of my duty, just like a soldier who persists on the battlefront despite the constant threat of bullets. This jazba (drive) has kept me going so far. I have realised that there cannot be any price for my nursing degree—people’s blessings are my only remuneration.

-As told to Giridhar Jha